Flowers.....Death.....

Flowers are plants that are really beautiful and are also meant to be given to people to show their love. There are roses, cherry blossoms(sakura) and many others. My favorite is sakura because it is a really beautiful flower and I love it. I wanted to give a rose to 'her' since she loves it so much but she refused it because she thought that it might be to risky.....And I agreed but during valentines, I will give it to her and I made a promise to myself. I am not in to flowers but I love Sakura. Sakura is a really beautiful flower and I would love to give it to her one day.
Death.....Death is an really ugly sight and experience in life. I hate death. I hate the word death too. Death is something no human can control but only God can control death. When it is your time, God will take your life away. The thing is do not be sad as when your dying, your soul goes to a much happier place which is heaven. The new Earth will be then made. Some of you might be thinking that I might be crapping here but if you do not believe me, you should go and check the bible. The chapter Revelations shall explain everything. The reason why I wrote this is to show that I love 'her' and the word death....I will protect her with my life. If I die, at least I will die knowing that she will be safe......I love you....

Love, Beats

Loving isn't wrong. I do not understand why some parents think it wrong to go out in this age. Maybe they had experienced something and don't want us to go through the same thing as they did. The thing is that they can't choose for us whether we wanna go out with someone or not. Loving isn't wrong. The way we do it might be wrong. Some people express love through words and feelings like me. Some express it through touch such as sex and etc. I don't really understand whether is it wrong but love is something everyone has. Beats....Our heart beats to keep our body system alive but if you hear it closely and listen to a song, your heart beats to the rhythm. It also express how you feel. You can't lie to your heart because your heart is the real thing. I am listening to Kaze no Machi ne right now and my heart feels weird. It feels down...it feels that it wants to be with 'her' and I wanna be with 'her'....That's the only thing that is important to me....Being with her and my friends....

Fear

Fear is something that everyone has in their heart. If you say your not scared of anything, your lying cause you are scared of something. Like you cheated on someone, your scared she/he will find out. I used to say that I was never scared of anything but now I found out what I am scared of and I never want it to happen but I can't control this fear because it is something I have to face. I used to be scared of the dark but now I am not because I got over it. Now I have a new fear. A fear that I can never get rid off. I am scared of being alone. I hate being alone. When I am alone, I close my eyes and imagine that 'she' is there. When I imagine that, I imagine her putting her arms around me. Her hands rubbing from my back to my neck to my cheeks to my lips and then she kisses me. I love that but when I open my eyes, everything just disappears away. I hate that. I hate it when I am alone. When I am alone, I feel like I am noting. Like I am empty. When I am alone, I feel this presence that shouldn't be there. Like something is there and I sense it is a bad aura. I hate it...I hate being alone. Without her, I thought, I am nothing. I am nothing to this world. My friends love me so at least I have gotten rid of a bit of the fear but I am still scared...I am scared of being alone....

In love...and away....

I am in love. In love with someone really special to me. The problem is that the holidays are seperating us and I cannot see her till next year comes but I will still be really sad as I can't see her during recess now. I hope she will be able to stay back next year. Next year, I just wanna be with her all the time. I wanna seperate my time with my best friends and her. I love her so much but I can't see her. It pains my heart....

The end...

It's the end of school....Nothing can stop me....I just wanna let it all out...I just wanna shout to the skies while crying....I just can't believe school has ended...It just really pisses me off....Having so little time with the one I love....Having so little time with my friends...It's like saying hi and then saying bye....Watching everyone walk away....really hurts my heart....Taking all the pain....I can't take it....I can't bloody take it anymore.....I just wish that the chains I had with all of them are not going to be broken....So that I can still hear their thoughts and their hearts.....I just wish that....

My love...

Listening to my heart,
Hoping we will never part.
The piano is playing,
And we are both singing.

We look in each others eyes,
We cant tell lies.
Because we are in love.

When we touch and hod hands,
We can't let go,
We feel the static

I love you,
You love me,
And we're in this together..

You are my love.....

The faint scent of tears
On my rain soaked cheeks
The warm look on the face
Of travelers
The music from our childhood
Faintly echoes in the background
The memories I hopelessly try to remember
Wander aimlessly
But with these tiny wings, launched by my dreams
Over distant oceans and skies
We'll soar together
To a place where memories never fade
You light up the way for me
In the darkness of night
Oh, that warm look
On your face
I miss you so much